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Kata orang, cinta ga butuh balasan.
Kata orang, cinta ga harus saling memiliki.
Kata orang, cinta bukan mengharapkan imbalan, tapi bagaimana kita memberi semuanya tanpa pamrih kepada orang yang kita cinta.
Kata aku, definisi cinta tergantung pada kepada siapa kita mencinta.
Cinta kepada Tuhan adalah cinta yang semestinya ada, karena Tuhan; kita tahu bahwa Tuhan mencintai kita dan memberi segala yang terbaik untuk kita.
Cinta kepada mama adalah cinta yang tulus, yang ada sebelum kita mengerti apa arti cinta itu sendiri.
Cinta kepada papa, adalah cinta kepada setiap peluh yang menetes dari kerja keras beliau.
Cinta kepada adik, adalah cinta karena mereka, adalah teman hidup kita yang tidak akan pergi saat yang lainnya pergi.
Cinta buat sahabat? Cinta yang ga butuh setiap hari ketemu untuk menjaga agar cinta itu tetap ada.
Cinta buat kamu... Membiarkan kamu bahagia? I think no, karena sakit ngeliat kamu senang tanpa aku. Aku tau aku bisa bikin kamu lebih bahagia dari ini, dan aku pingin kamu bahagianya sama aku. karena aku.
oh, maaf aku lupa bilang. Cinta itu egois.
dan yang terakhir, cinta untuk kalian. Aku gangerti ini jenis cinta macam apa (dan udah masuk kategori cinta apa bukan). Tapi yang jelas, definisi dari cinta untuk kalian cuma satu: mengagumi dari jauh. Bukannya aku ga berani untuk kenal lebih dekat sama kalian, tapi ada tembok─yang lebih kuat dari tembok jerman─yang buat aku berhenti untuk sekedar yaaa menyapa kalian. Tembok, yang dibuat oleh kebersamaan, rasa kasih sayang, cinta, dan rasa tak ingin kehilangan yang dibangun bersama yang lain. Bukan bersama aku. Dan aku masih tau diri, tau etika. Aku bukan siapa siapa untuk menghancurkan tembok yang sudah
dibangun dengan sulit, karena aku tau sendiri bagaimana rasanya merasakan tembok itu hancur. Sakit. Aku bukan siapa siapa dibanding dia yang sudah bersamamu selama itu. Seperti yang aku sudah bilang, kata orang, cinta itu tak harus memiliki. Karena nyatanya, banyak orang yang lebih mencintai sesuatu yang bukan miliknya─dalam kasusku dia milik orang lain─ dibanding mencintai dan menghargai apa yang selalu ada, yang selalu mencinta dengan penuh dan tanpa pamrih. Setuju atau tidak, pada ujungnya tetap saja, cinta buat kalian adalah mengagumi dari jauh. Itu saja sudah lebih dari cukup.
oh, satu lagi. Selamat bertambah usia, kalian.

Fall in love when you're ready, not when you're lonely

Let Her Go ─ Passenger

Well you only need the light when it's burning low 
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow 
Only know you love her when you let her go 

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low 
Only hate the road when you're missing home 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
And you let her go 

Staring at the bottom of your glass 
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last 
But dreams come slow and they go so fast 
You see her when you close your eyes 
Maybe one day you'll understand why 
Everything you touch surely dies 

But you only need the light when it's burning low 
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low 
Only hate the road when you're missing home 
Only know you love her when you let her go 

Staring at the ceiling in the dark 
Same old empty feeling in your heart 
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast 
Well you see her when you fall asleep 
But never to touch and never to keep 
'Cause you loved her too much and you dive too deep 

Well you only need the light when it's burning low 
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low 
Only hate the road when you're missing home 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
And you let her go 
Oh oh oh no 
And you let her go 
Oh oh oh no 
Well you let her go 

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low 
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low 
Only hate the road when you're missing home 
Only know you love her when you let her go 

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low 
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low 
Only hate the road when you're missing home 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
And you let her go

High school life─not as good as you think

I feel so bad about myself... and dis faking "Kurikulum 2013". Nih ya comparisonnya sama kurikulum sebelumnya

Dulu: weekend buat main, ngegaul, cabut bareng tmn and fams
Sekarang: weekend and satnite-an sama tugas

Dulu: belajar math 3x seminggu (2 jam pelajaran aja)
Sekarang: belajar math 2x seminggu (4 jam pelajaran:( each day:()

Dulu: kita gangerti guru bkl jelasin lg panjang lebar
Sekarang: karena menganut sistem pembelajaran Scientific, siswa diminta untuk mengerti dan menggali sendiri bahan yg diajarkan

Dulu: balik sekolah bisa main dulu cucus dulu
Sekarang: Les, tgs, kerja kelompok, LINTAS MINAT

Dulu: tas sekolah bisa pake ransel kecil bahkan cm tas jinjing doang
Sekarang: Ransel segede gaban

Dulu: buku paket semua pelajaran, dan jelassssss semua
Sekarang: buku paket cm ada 3: math, sejarah, b.indo. gua gangerti knp apakah blm beres dicetak atau emg gadibuat, cuma ini makin menyatakan kalo kurikulum 2013 tuh gasiapppppppp

Dulu: pulang jam 3
Sekarang: jam 12 jg udh bisa balik

AAAAAAAAAAAA pokonya stress bgt deh I'm a freshman anddd harus adaptasi sm kurikulum baru:(( Cape bgttt begadang tiap hari (walopun biasanya ketiduran trs kebangun jam 3an dan dilanjut ngerjain tgs. hoek.) dan susah buat ngatur acara diluar akademik sekolah. I mean my life's not just for school! Idup gue bkn cuma buat ke skolah doang:(( plis deh I have another life out theeeeereeeee:( dan skrg yg gue bisa lakukan cm pasrah dan ngikutin dis faking syid ajaa smp beres:((

and btw gue bknlah org yg jago di pelajaran eksak macem math physics chemistry:(( gue mulai merasa kalo gue salah jurusan masuk IPA haha:( nyokap bilang kalo ingatan gue kuat dan gue hrs kuatin di biology, history, english, bahasa, etc. Gue jg bkn anak yg jago olahraga, smntr p.e. di sma 3 tuh yaAllah macem lo atlet dan bakal tanding di olimpiade tauga:( fix remed di p.e. dan mafiki:( berikut skrg org2 masih menganggap those whom great at mathsss itu pinter dan yg bagus di sosial itu bodo. Inilah hal hal yg bikin gua depressed (a lot) di sma dan gua masih bingung hrs gmn:( ternyata high school life ga seindah ftv yang nyante nyante aja yaaaa hahaha. Haaaah wish me luckkk ajadeh

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Well,
it feels like
you've deleted me from your entire life

oh take me back to the start

9Conquest<3

Yogya, 2013

oldies but goldies ;)

laughing till we die cause we don't care about tomorrow

Best-est friends ever

I Miss You ─ Blink182

I miss you, I miss you
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want 
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends
I miss you, I miss you
I miss you, I miss you

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted 
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head
I miss you, I miss you
Don't waste your time on me you're already 
The voice inside my head
I miss you, I miss you

I miss you, I miss you

I miss you, I miss you.

(Re: I miss us)

Unexpected Goodbye

When all you wanna do/
Is turning back the time/
So you don't have to say/
Goodbye

Honestly, I regret it. I regret those words. They said it's better that we break.

But I don't feel better now.

It just... it feels like my world's crumbling and I feel falling. I thought you'd be there to hold me, to catch me but no, you're gone.

It wasn't over for me. It's STILL not over for me.

I was that fool to think that you're gonna be mine forever, that we're gonna be last, that we're okay and everything's gonna be alright. I never thought that you'd be this cruel, leaving me with those fucking good memories and you don't even reply my texts.. How come? I thought you love me and I'm gonna be the one who leaves but I thought wrong. I thought you're different, but you're just another boy.

I don't believe in karma, but for now, let me say that it'll hit you soon. Very soon.

You'll regret it baby;)